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Aleister Black/Malakai Black on depression ‘fuelling’ his wrestling career

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Former WWE Superstar Aleister Black, now AEW star Malakai Black, recently appeared on the Drinks With Johnny podcast. The former NXT Champion discussed a number of topics during the show, including how depression has fuelled his pro wrestling career.

“There was a time in my life where I thought that I was going to lose my wrestling career because I thought if I wasn’t sad or if I wasn’t depressed, I wouldn’t have any fuel to create” Black would begin.

“I wouldn’t have any fuel to make anything of myself and I would lose all the stuff that I had worked for. So, all this pain and anguish, and I hate using those words, they sound so edgy” Black continued.

Aleister Black on depression

“It’s not fun to have this really unhealthy mindset where you’ve convinced yourself that you can only be good if your absolutely f**king horrible and you destroy shit and you deliberately get involved with people you know are not good for you,” Aleister Black noted.

“You get involved with people that will never understand you, are not on the same wavelength as you and you know are going to be bad for you so you deliberately stay in these situations and then halfway through it you get this weird, ‘What the f**k am I doing’ and this strange guilt trip and you’re trying to yank yourself out of it and that turns into sh*t.


“Whatever way you were trying to spin the bottle, it all ends in the same manner. You created this maze for yourself mentally that you can’t escape” the former WWE Superstar revealed.

“You feel awful all the time. You feel negative all the time, but you don’t want to because now you’ve reached the point in your life where you’re over it. I remember one of my friends once told me the definition of hate is to be obsessed with something until the day you die. I was like, ‘I don’t want that. I don’t want to carry that with me'” the new AEW signee concluded.

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